The New Me  全新的我

No one could contest the feelings of lackluster motivation instilled upon me the moment I was drawn from the comfort of my bed and forced to partake in a leadership program I had never been informed of before. Having the INFP personality, I was already withdrawn into “hermit mode,” but was forcefully dragged from my comfort zone to confront reality and combat my insecurities that never ceased to haunt me.

My first day at YIA reminded me of school: I imagined my childhood and the humiliation I endured, my sister whose life dangled at the surgeon’s hand, and internal scars that left me speechless in front of others. Yet, despite all my twists and turns in my journey to just be able to cope with the pain of my past, Youth in Action gave me an opportunity to become a student leader: an opportunity I doubted but took because I had nothing to lose.

It symbolized a fresh start, an opportunity to begin anew and experience the wonders of life I had never explored. The presence of nonjudgmental eyes, the presence of a safe environment, and the presence of caring counselors, staff, and students was able to tap in to my inner flame of passion that I knew I could do better. With the leadership opportunity, I was able to build up my courage and confidence from scratch, build up my desire and motivation to serve others from nothing to an unquenchable thirst, and build up leadership skills to be able to cooperate and interact with others to reach our goals.

My first-time volunteering at the homeless ministry opened my eyes. Despite their circumstances, they smiled and were extremely grateful when we served them which reminded me of my spoiled generation: in which instant gratification is seen as a necessity. I thought about how lucky I was that I had a home and caring family; yet the homeless people seemed to possess more humanity than any other people I have met. Their compassion and kindness towards one another warmed my heart, as serving others became a desire instead of just mere volunteer hours on a resume.

I channeled this energy and passion to give back to the community, as I needed to ensure the ideal that everyone is a part of the community. By neglecting others, we only undermine ourselves and future generations to come. I learned that just one hour of volunteering, can make all the difference in one’s life. By building each other up, we set the precedent for future generations that the community we live in should be close knit and no one should be left behind. I will continue to apply this knowledge to myself by continuing to serve others in my future: no matter my schedule I will always find time to serve others. 

Joining Youth in Action was a life changing experience for me, as I experienced a rapid transformation into a better person and leader. I learned to apply the skills I acquired from YIA and will continue to do so in my future. Making a difference in the community through service had never appealed to me before, as it now is a desire and need: my transformation from an empty slate to a passionate and curious young adult a result from the experience and life lessons I obtained throughout my 3 sessions in YIA.

 

當我從舒適的床上被找起來,被迫去參加一個自己從未有聽過的領袖計劃的那一刻,相信沒有人會比我更難受。內向的我,常常都會退隠到「自己的框框」裡。然而,把我從安樂窩裡硬生生地抓出來,去面對現實、去與自己的不安爭鬥,就如夢魘般纏著我。

動感青年的第一堂課讓我想起學校 :  小時候所受到的羞辱、生命徘徊在手術刀下的妹妹、和內心的,創傷,令我不敢在別人面前講話。但是,在克服痛苦的這條迂迴曲折的路上,動感青年給了我一個成為學生領袖的機會,一個自己有所保留,卻抓著的機會,因為我根本不會有任何損失。

動感青年像徵著一個新的開始,一個我從不曽涉擸過,卻是要去經歷美妙人生的機會。沒有審判的眼光、一個安全的環境、一群關懷並置的導師、學生及職員,點燃了我內心的那團火,我知道我是可以做到得更好的。透過當領袖的機會,我的信心和勇氣慢慢地建立起來;服侍別人的動力和意欲從零到不可止息;為了達到我們的目標,我學會了與別人互動和合作的圑隊精神。

第一次服侍那些無家可歸的人,讓我眼界大開。雖然他們的環境不太理想,可是當我們服侍他們的時候,他們臉上的笑容及極度的感恩,使我想到我們這被寵壞的一代,覺得即時滿足是理所當然的代!有一個家、一群愛我的家人的我,是何等的幸福,然而這些無家可歸人士比我所遇過的任何一個人,更具人性。他們對彼此的那份熱情和慈愛令我感到很窩心,讓我不再是為了履歷表上多了一項社區服務而當義工,而是真的是為了服務人群而當義工。

            我把我的精力和熱誠用來回饋這個社區,因為我相信每個人都是社會的一部份。忽視其他人,只會削弱我們和我們的下一代。我學到短短一小時的義工服務,原來昰可以影響一個人的生命的。透過彼此建立,我們為下一代樹立了一個榜樣,讓他們知道所居住的社區應該是相連的,任何人都不應該被忽略。我會把這知識運用在自己身上,將來不管有多忙,我都會繼續找時間來服務別人。

            對我來說,參加動感青年是一個改變生命的經驗。透過這課程,我變成一個更好的人、更有效的領袖。我會把在課程中學到的技巧應用在生活上。我從來不覺得服務社區可以帶來改變,但,現在卻成了我的渴求和必需要。我之能夠從一個漠不關心的人,變成一個熱誠、好奇的年青人,全因過去三期動感青年的課程和生活體驗!

 

@Timothy Gee(YIA學員)

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